Started typing up a request that's been eating away at me for a while, and I swear to god it was only meant to be a couple paragraphs. It kind of evolved into EPIC~

This is VERY angsty. It's also very choppy and written in first-person. You have been warned.

This is for mushroom_cookie.

WARNING - CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 3 PART 6.
Title - Después de muerte
Fandom - Trauma Center (Under the Knife 2)
Rating - PG
Pairing - Well, none specifically, but you can view it in a Heather/Emilio light
Words - 1170 approx.
Summary - Heather is trying to move on, but her old life is catching up with her.

( Después de muerte )

Yo!

I'm here to announce the opening of a (very) new RP. Currently the only unavailable characters are Dr Stiles, Angie, Victor and Naomi. WE NEED YOUR HELP TO GET THE -medical- PARTY STARTED!

Get down to Caduceus and claim your character!

--GiGi (Caduceus' Dr Stiles)

Hai gaiz.

Listen, I need to know. Would you consider 8 songs to be decent for an FST? Or is that too stingy? PLEASE GIMME YOUR OPINION!!

If that's cool, I have a UtK2 fanmix up for grabs soon. It's probably more suited to the tastes of the more alternative of listeners among you, but hey, give it a try.

The current song list looks like this:
>Emergency Paramore
>When Two Are One Atreyu
>The Moment I Said It Imogen Heap
>One Love Aiden
>Come Clarity In Flames
>Heartbeats Jose Gonzalez
>Propane Nightmares Pendulum
>Ghost (Poem) Emilie Autumn

More on that later.

I STILL NEED OPINIONS ON IKEIO, EVERYONE. YOUR COMMENT COULD DECIDE OUR TWO STAR-CROSSED LOVERS' FATES! Read the link here: Ikeio and Karelet.

Oops, sorry. I posted that a bit early by accident.

I'm also going to update soon with a ficlet for mushroom_cookie. It's going to be Heather-centric, after that great huge spoiler that I'm not going to say aloud but most of you already know what I'm talking about anyway.

...Um, I think that's it.

I have the most disgusting feeling I'm being blatantly ignored by someone I'm worrying my ass off about right now.

--GiGi

Hey there, LJ. Long time no see.

So, yeah. I just wanted to announce that Ikeio is getting rather lonely. Which is sad - we abandonated him just before he met Karelet. erulisse14 and I may post new parts soon. I need to see how she feels on the subject, I'm sure she'll agree, so basically watch this space!
Um, by way of an explanation, we've both been incredibly busy. Both recently finished the nightmare that are GCSEs and now what with A Levels catching up to us, we might be even quieter. Who knows? But, I am going to make a concerted effort to post the remaining parts, even if that means I'll be doing it myself (PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME DO IT, erulisse14!!)

What I want to know is - IS ANYBODY OUT THERE INTERESTED?! 'Cuz, I mean...as much as we love our pseudo-Shakespearian philistines, if we don't have an audience to perform to, it gets a little tired. SO. Holler if you're interested, please! And, PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. If you know someone who might enjoy it, PIMP IT. Yes, we need this pimped like CRAZY here from behind the keyboard. GO, GO, GO, SHAKESPEARE RANGERS!!!

We had some brilliant fans here, keeping updated and enjoying the parody. Are you guys still on this bandwagon? Know anyone that might leap on at a moment's notice? AND MANY, MANY THANKS for those of you that read while it was still alive. GET READY FOR A REVIVAL!!!

--GiGi

Okay, beneath the cut is NO.2 ICON DUMP.

31 total
15 x Trauma Center
16 x Phoenix Wright

Prepare yourselves, peasants.
( Another Icon Dump~ )

Just so nobody thinks I'd dead...

I think I'll get an icon dump up for all of you. That should be fun. Although my LJ doesn't like tables, as it keeps putting huge spaces between text (such as titles) and the tables themselves. In the preview at least. Any thoughts?

I'm replaying UtK2...It's so addictive. I love Adel :D

I think it's time for a re-skin of this journal. As much as I love the black, I can't help but feel it's a little old.

And...that's it, I suppose *laugh*

--GiGi

Mirrored from http://community.livejournal.com/gyakuten_saiban/610981.html?view=8252325#t8252325

I'm really confused as to how I feel about GS4. I've been known to say "I'm not gonna play it" but it's not really true. I was chatting to a friend at school today, she was all "Oh, yay, Gyakuten 4 is out tomorrow!!!" She was genuinely over the moon about it.
And I should be too, except, there's this sinking feeling I can't ignore in the pit of my stomach. Constipation? Well, maybe.
But seriously. I recently finished Trials and Tribulations - I've had to play it second hand off an R4 that my friend had for a long time. There was the massive grin at that last "Objection!" and a high buzzing through my chest as I realise I've finished the game that's had me hooked. Same old feeling - except this time, there was this overwhelming sense of disappointment.
"Is that it?"
Don't get me wrong, Trials was stunning - the best of all three Saibans so far. I've enjoyed the series and grown close to it. It's for this reason that Saiban 4 is giving me such heartache.
I really have grown fond of all the characters and I'm going to actually miss them. Is that sad? Maybe it is, but I'm proud of each and every one of them for holding my attention so steadfastly through the series up 'til now.
So now there's a bunch of new characters on the scene. Great - I'm sure they're going to be just as interesting and well fleshed-out as the old ones. I'm sure I'll grow just as close to them as I am to all my favourite characters in the series so far - Phoenix, Edgeworth, Larry, Maya - and I want to know more about the characters that were only just introduced. I want to know more about Diego and Godot. I want some more escapades with Dahlia Hawthorne. I want to know about Iris and Valerie. It's just too soon, for me.

I'll play it - I'm not prejudiced. I'll give it a go, and I'm sure I'll love it, but until then, that sinking feeling just won't go away.
--Peace out.

I'm actually sitting here, in my room, shivering my friggen ass off. It's cold. I dunno how cold, but it must be real cold for me to feel it through my big phat hoodie and socks and stuff, not to mention my internal duvet. Yay for being fat!
Other than that...I've been robbed of Trauma Center. Okay, so it wasn't mine to begin with, but it became a matter of professional pride that I beat Savato before relinquishing the game, and I didn't. Somehow, I feel I've failed life.
My brother got back from Leer today (for those of you who don't know it's in Germany) where he's been staying. I simply nagged him to buy Second Opinion, as I have it not and the art is sexier than Under The Knife. Don't I feel good?
I'm finally back with a scanner: w00tage. It means I may actually update my deviantART account, but I'm almost afraid to in case all the people I owe commissions and requests and prizes will eat me.
I still haven't seen a cardiologist. Oh the fun.


...Er. Yes. So....

I have so much to say it's all hurting my ickle brain.
Firstly, my health. Woo, because the first thing anyone says in conversation is 'How are you?' (although technically that's a question, we'll ignore that as it means I have to restructure my sentance) I figure it should come first!

That, and it's bugging me right at this very moment in time.

My palpitations (Wiki'd for your leisure: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Palpitations) have been getting a lot worse. I wasn't really worried about them at first but now I can't breathe properly and my chest is tight almost constantly.
It first started seriously worrying me one PE lesson. We were playing netball (like basketball, for those of you who don't know, only you can't run with the ball) and I'd been having palpitations for a couple days before that. They hadn't gone away yet, and they hadn't gotten in the way of my physical performance before, so I gave it a shot. I played for about ten minutes and then found myself glad for the break when we came off court. My heart was hurting. Literally - not just my chest area, but the organ itself was burning and I got sharp pains with every heartbeat. I could hardly breathe or see straight and I felt pretty faint.
The reason I'm saying this is that it's been worrying me a lot recently. I've got the pain right now, all across my chest. This means it's gotten worse since I saw the doctors about it.
I also found out my GP has left my local surgery. I haven't been referred to a cardiologist, like she said I would be. This means I have to go back. They have to re-assess me. That means more blood tests, more ECGs, more freaking doctors fiddling with my body. I'm sick and tired of it. I want the problem solved but I can't see what's causing it. It seems to be everything - alcohol, caffeine, exercise, sugar, medicine, stress, anxiety...
Looking at those, I would say it's an adrenaline problem, right? Wrong. I went paintballing last week with that idea in mind. Not a single missed beat. And if you've ever paintballed you KNOW what the adrenaline's like.
So...I'm beginning to wonder if it's more serious than that. I really, REALLY don't want it to be, but at the same time...I want a diagnosis.

Moving on.
It's Mock GCSE week here at school! Oh, fun, games and everlasting joy!- And of course, don't forget the abundant sarcasm!!
Seriously. Today, I did a Chemistry ISA, which was just too easy for my brilliant self. My Chemistry Mock followed that, which gave me quite a challenge. However, I finally understand cracking Hydrocarbons now, which is magnificent. Then the Textiles Mock...best not to ask about that one...and my English Language, in which was an abundant slagging off of Celebrity Big Brother and the singing of Gerard Way's praises. Ain't life grand?

And then I come home, pwnz the Pempti's arse into the ground, treat five Kyriaki victims in 10 minutes and get hopelessly stuck on the removal of some freakishly mutated tapeworm. All with the reassuring emo-cheerleader voice of one Mr Victor LabRat in my ear.

And here I am, travelling full circle in conversation - but as much as I love Caduceus and all its wonderful gory death, it can't be good for the little internal factory. There, there.

--GiGi

Oh yes, so Tokyopop ReCon on Wednesday was AWESOME. For those of you who don't know, it's a manga-based mini Con that's often hosted by a chain of bookshops called Waterstone's. It moves around a lot, so I was lucky to have one right near me.

There were a lot more cosplayers than I'd imagined. I'm not going to say any more about cosplay now, but what I am going to do is put a photo beneath the cut of us cosplaying. I am in there somewhere - it'd be interesting to see you guys guess which one's me. It should be simple, I don't know whether I've put a photo of me up in the past, but it'd be fun to see you guess!
I bet no-one will, of course, because I know a lot of people don't watch my journal. I'll stop people guessing when I put up the rest of the photos.

( To the ReCon Cosplayers! )

--GiGi

This is an excerpt from a conversation I had with erulisse14 (me: GiGi, Eru: annakerstin2004, after I went to the hospital this morning to get an ECG put on. You may find it funny, you may not.

I certainly did *grin*

(08:49:54 PM) GiGi: BTW

(08:50:03 PM) annakerstin2004: yeah?

(08:50:07 PM) GiGi: most WORRYING message i've ever seen.

(08:50:12 PM) annakerstin2004: what?

(08:50:48 PM) GiGi: we got to the clinical measurements ward in the hospital, where they deal with all the cardiac stuff, you know, ecgs and pacemakers and stuff

(08:51:04 PM) annakerstin2004: yeah

(08:51:23 PM) GiGi: and displayed on the wall in great big letters is a sign

(08:51:38 PM) GiGi: "IN THE EVENT OF CARDIAC ARREST DIAL '2222'"

(08:51:43 PM) GiGi: ...it's like...

(08:52:23 PM) GiGi: going into a mcdonalds and seeing a sign saying "IN THE EVENT OF SOMEONE DYING OF CHOLESTEROL POISONING DIAL 2222"

(08:52:31 PM) GiGi: or, a gun shop

(08:52:40 PM) GiGi: "IN THE EVENT OF DEATH DIAL 2222"

(08:52:44 PM) GiGi: ...worrying stuff...

(08:52:52 PM) annakerstin2004: ......indeed

(08:53:02 PM) GiGi: sorry. i thought it was funny.

(08:53:15 PM) GiGi: obviously i'm just easily amused

(08:53:48 PM) annakerstin2004: i'm still trying to figure out why they would put such an obvious sign in a hospital?

(08:53:59 PM) annakerstin2004: or a gun shop for that matter...

(08:54:54 PM) GiGi: *laugh* that's the idea. i mean...it's like saying "GUESS WHAT? YER IN A HOSPITAL!! IF SOMEONE DIES...HAH! THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS HERE!"

(08:55:26 PM) annakerstin2004: lol

(08:55:37 PM) GiGi: honestly...

(08:55:42 PM) GiGi: I was sitting there going

(08:56:31 PM) GiGi: "Shit, someone's gonna freaking die! LIKE right now! And then i've gotta find a bollocking phone to save their assing life!"

(08:56:42 PM) GiGi: lolz

(08:57:15 PM) annakerstin2004: but why would you need an emergency number for someone who collapes...in the middle of a hospital

(08:58:07 PM) GiGi: ...kinda also what was worrying me

(08:58:22 PM) GiGi: i don't fricking know?

(08:58:55 PM) annakerstin2004: yeah... i mean they have medical staff around 24/7 yet you need to dial an emergency number?

(09:00:01 PM) GiGi: *snort* it's like...

(09:00:42 PM) GiGi: "IN THE EVENT OF SOMEONE DYING, PLEASE PHONE US. CUZ GUESS WHAT? WE'RE NOT PAYING THE BLINDEST BIT OF ATTENTION! LOLZ!!!1!1!1!111shift!!!"

(09:01:09 PM) annakerstin2004: very worrying.....

(09:02:03 PM) GiGi: but also very lolable

...and indeed it was. Remind me never to have a heart attack in a hospital.

Oh yes, I did do some Death Note fanfiction. Actually I've done a lot of Death Note fanfiction but can't be bothered to post most of it.

What this actually IS...it's a sort of insight into Kira's effect on people involved in the rest of the story. I saw episode 37 three times in a row on Friday and went out with erulisse14 on Saturday where she bought volume 12 from Forbidden Planet and we spent about two hours in Starbucks reading it.
This is the result.

This fanfiction is mostly thanks to Emilie Autumn for writing such songs as "God help me", "Opheliac" and "Dead is the new Alive" which were a great inspiration to me. In fact, those two albums were a great inspiration. They helped me write this extremely confusing oneshot.

It is difficult to get your head around, I'll warn you. It jumps around a lot to different POVs.

WARNING - SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 37
Title - (tentative - please suggest a new title!) Saviour
Fandom - Death Note
Rating - U
Pairing - None
Words - 941 approx.
Summary - The people who Kira has affected most, and their thoughts one year after the events in episode 37. AU of sorts, because some characters are alive who shouldn't be.

( 'The obsession with death, the obsession with death, becomes a way of life' - Dead is the new Alive - Emilie Autumn )

Hoist the colours high!
http://roaring.livejournal.com/70304.html

It appears my flist is trembling under the weight of more and more of these "reporting the Strikethrough", "New developments - Strikethrough", and "My fandom r0x ma s0x" posts. roaring is firing us all up quite nicely.

I'd like to take this opportunity (although I know people will never read this) to say that I feel just the way I felt through the Yellow Day Protest over at deviantART back in '05 - I feel proud to be part of a community - not just little communities trembling in fear of being deleted, or else just crapping themselves laughing - the LJ community that is standing up to all this shit we're being put through. I hope it continues to stay that way. Haul together - let's make this protest one which LJ will never forget.

--GiGi

I went on an icon spree today and made these. This entry will be updated with more as I make them.
They're multi-fandom, by the way - the ones I'm putting up now are Death Note (mostly involving Misa), and Paramore (by which I mean Hayley, who is TEH SEHX).

To do a kindness to the people who watch me, these are under the cut.

EDIT: Thanks to misheard for teaching me how to do tables! *grin*

( Icons are here! )

--GiGi

This has been flying around for a while, for anyone who doesn't know, a site - Fanlib, is profiting off of users' fics, please avoid the site like the plague. This...I have to say, is angering me very much. There is a person who has described the situation better, visit the link below for more information.

http://darkhelmetj.deviantart.com/journal/13065748/#journal

_{Mirrored to my deviantart journal - http://sheikan-fire.deviantart.com}

GiGi is actually writing something? SRSLY?

OMG, it seems, yes!

So, I wrote a Misa drabble and I'm really proud of it.

Yup.


Title - Normality
Fandom - Death Note
Rating - PG for a naughty word
Pairing - Onesided Misa x Light and a mystery Light x Someone
Words - 356 approx. It really is that short
Summary - Misa's reflections on her love life and the idiot male gender

( She began to wonder why she had gone for him )

^_What?

I'm feeling a little better now, thanks to all those wonderful, beautiful people who helped me through it.
I'm also feeling better because I cosplayed yesterday...yes you will have photos, as soon as I can wrestle them from my forgetful friend's cold, dead hands.

...ehem.

--GiGi

This is it, obviously. My parents have had a massive row, you know, the usual slapping and smashing things, and it turns out my mum asked for a divorce a month ago. My dad'll leave, probably soon, maybe in a couple days...
...I'm the only sibling who understands why they're doing this. My brother and sister are too young, probably. I guess I have to be strong for them.

...I'm not sure I can manage that. How can I be strong if all I want to do is to curl up in a corner and cry?

I haven't talked to anyone about this so far, I just have to get this off my chest. I know it may not seem like a big thing - you guys probably know plenty of people whose folks are divorced/separated, but for me it's always been a nice thing to have both parents.

...Well, that's it. It's not a big thing, not to you guys, not when I put it into words, but I just feel like dying.

Comment and I will ...

(1) Tell you why I friended you.
(2) Associate you with something. A fandom, a song, a color, a piece of fruit. SOMETHING.
(3) Tell you something I like about you.
(4) Tell you a memory I have of you.
(5) Associate you with a character/pairing.
(6) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
(7) Tell you my favorite userpic of yours.
(8) In retort, you must spread this disease in your LJ.

Okay, so tonight from 6:45 onwards, I'm an actress. I have my play starting at 7:30, but before that's a dress rehearsal.
My drama group and I are putting on a performance of Billy Liar tonight. For those of you who don't know, it's a play about a boy who lives in a complete fantasy world - he makes up everything about his life in order to make it interesting. Billy Fisher is 19, works as a funeral clerk and lives at home with his mum, dad and grandma. In his head, however, he's a playwrite, a conductor, a prime minister, the son of a naval captain. You name it.

The play's all about his misadventures in his crazy world, and we've been performing like heck lately. Right now, I'm feeling alright, but talking about it is making me a little nervous. This is the first time I've been in a play since I was six, and the first time in two years I've been on stage. Needless to say, I'm a little nervous. Thing is, I've got mega stage fright. ^^;

So, uh, wish me luck!

Oh, and to Shiv, Scarlett, Eleanor, Tash, Laura, Nana, Katy and Kelly - break a leg!

--GiGi
PS - for those of you that are wondering, my part's Billy's dad, Geoffrey. He's an overworked, passionate guy who's decided his son's an idiot. And he says bloody all the time.